Being Thankful

Joel Osteen's email hit home today: in all things, give thanks.

That's really hard! I dont' know what's going on w/ me this week. I'm exhausted and it's only Wednesday. I've gone to bed early every night and still I can hardly think or move today. I don't know if I'm getting sick or if I'm totally stressed out. I know I'm frustrated that I can't run errands after work or leave the house w/o making sure someone is w/ mom. I'm frustrated that I give my schedule to my sister so that she can cover me so I can get out of the house and it's like she doesn't even read it. Then she's there every night when I don't need or want her to be there. Having an extra person in the house is tirinig and I don't feel like being nice anymore. And I'm still a bit frustrated about my showcase. Vince emailed me yesterday and said he doesn't normally schedule two comps this close together. We will start a routine but if it doesn't come together in time we'll use it in the spring instead. Mainly my frustration is that I cant' schedule extra lessons. So we have to do it in the four Saturdays that we have before the showcase. To top it all off, I'm wearing my mouthguard almost every night...I think I need it during the day also. I can't stop clinching my jaw!

What am I grateful for? I'm thankful mom is doing so well - and that she's alive. I'm thankful she still bosses me around (ha!). I'm thankful I have a sister who handles the business side of mom's situation. I'm thankful we have someone who comes to stay at the house w/ her during the day and takes her to therapy. I'm thankful I have a niece who can spend the night w/ her when I go to Dallas or petsit. I'm thankful I have an awesome dance teacher who communicates w/ me and doesn't ignore me in my lessons or when I text/email him. And I'm thankful that I will get to hang out w/ friends on my birthday next Saturday. I'm especially thankful for my job and the people I work w/ who have been very supportive during these last six weeks w/ mom.